hi hi everyone. just reached sg. it's currently 0450 atm ^^ (michelle lim why are you still not asleep yet!)<---- that's what mom would probably say if she's where. hoho. came back alone. was sent off from the airport by mom and dad and 2 little adorable brother ^^ (steven and tony). (although seems they didn't really wanna come but meh...) ok shall talked about my journey throughout departure to arrival and till i reached home. firstly, at the custom saw that bloody indian guy who quarantine mom and i for like agessss when we reached perth the last trip. dame fussy idotic guy. and this time, met him i'm like that guy's freaking familiar.. shit. pls do not let me get him, sadly i did. so he goes.. (looking at my passport for like 1 min) then goes "so michelle do you have any other picture along with your passport since it's kinda old and yellowish (what's with that yellowish and hello. sg passport time line's 10 yrs i'm sorry if you can't read the expire date -.-) so i took my ID card instead.. ok 2 mins past let head to departure hall! wooo! other than that indian guy other's pretty nice. hoho, this uncle (scanning for bomb thingy) he's like so you learn martial arts (when i accidently crack my joints) so i'm like nah, just used to play rough with my brother. so he's like hohoho, so i should be careful so you wouldn't hit me. i'm like hahahah nah.. well it's pretty nice since we're not gonna see each other anymore..

ok in the plane, waited like an hour (hell bored -.-) till it flew off. reckon was pretty lucky since out of 180, probability of empty seats's like 5/180??? yea i'm one of the lucky one. 2nd time straight in the row having empty seats beside me. hohooh. well, i'm telling you i'm a real paranoid person @.@ this guy came seem all excited and stuff no one's sitting in between us so i got suspicious thinking he's like the you know, drug dealer or something @.@ so though all urgent (well not really urgent), i never leave my bag unattended and bla bla bla (carry it even when im' sleeping. just in case he slip some item into my bag.) even thought of what i'll do if he successfully slip some drug item into it -.- how lame can michelle be @.@

well this trip, didn't got dehydrated. just hungry and wanna go toilet but it's too troublesome to go and hohoho, didn't wanna leave my bag alone unattended and be obvious @.@ what an idiot. hohoho hippo became my head rest. fully charged my mp3 and bought peanut (2.60$au!! so expensive. it's kinda small >.<) and finish like bits and pieces of my shape and ahh i'm really hungry atm. -.- yea reached sg. that guys' like all hell impatient and saying tiger's so crap bla bla bla. hey you've got water and you can go toilet. OH!! did i mention when getting ticket, person's like asking do you want asiel*(seriously i really don't know it's spelling nor how to pronounce it properly ><) or window, spent like a min trying to make up my mind. choose window instead. and hohoho! was readhing "can you keep a secret" well it's about this women whom met this guy in plane and had a pretty serious turbulence which hence that's how to story started bla bla bla.. ok was reading and then saw flashes and stuff. i'm like OMG OMG OMG!! it's lighting!! woahhh!! so was expecting turbulence. was kinda worried cause recalled turbulence in the story and this jap film i watched when younger about flight thingy @.@ i'm like ok michelle.. it's only turbulence.. plane's only shaking.. like other transportation.. then realise.. that's not a good sign =.= well nvm i'm all safe and sound. hohoho!!!

OK! reached sg. arrival queue's not very long but person' taking ages... like this family probably took 5 mins to get though. it only took me, hmm 30s max @.@. got my luggage and hello kor kor waving at me when walking out. hohoho feels like those people in drama. hohoo and yea, talked about family stuff on out way home. daddy's and mommy's current condition.. (that's a big sigh. SIGH) and he's explaining housing properly in sg.. omg sg's so scary.. everyone seems so rich and evil and so competitive. ie: if the housing market demand's 100k, house evaluate to 200k. people can only get home for for 100k and has to pay the reminding 100k in cash. CASH*(he emphasize one this quite a number of times). and said, now everything's crazy, prices going up, people getting taxed and charged for heaps of stuff and blablabla, makes me kinda worried about my future.. it's not gonna be as easy as what i picture i'm sure atm.. @.@ but still, i finally understand why sister says student's the luckiest people.. i reckon especially sg kids.. omg so fortunate.. so unaware of their surrounding, always put themselves as the 1st prority. it's scary how sg'll turn out be in 10 yrs time. redistribution of income's getting wider.. it's a major concern and i'm worried about my future @.@ ahhhhhH!!!

i may not be the best, but i tried my best.
i may not fulfill your expectations, but i'll do whatever i can.
i don't expect to do things i like, get things i want,
but at least don't give or make me do stuff i dislike.
i don't expect you to know, but least least try understanding.

if i were to live till 80, being 19 atm, i've already used 14 of my life.. so what have i accomplished? what have i found of about myself? what do i like? what's my aspiration?? i dunno man.. i reckon, that 1/4 of life, half of that maybe more have been wasted.. and if there's nothing much i can do in old age.. out of that 3/4, half of it could probably due to old age, a waste too. so that remaining half of that 3/4 the only time, were i could and the only time to do something, other than wasting life.. but firstly, what can i do? i'm no heroine. i'm not special. i'm just a very ordinary girl that wants something but no idea what. how stupid is that.. and oh , right eye lid has been twitching for days.. i wonder what sign that is

some feelings cannot be described using words. some words don't bring out the meaning of our feelings. right now i'm not even sure what i'm thinking. right now, i can't even describe how i'm feeling or what i'm feeling. if i can't express myself nor describe how i'm feeling, then i suppose it's no point having to think so much.. but i can't help it being such a complicated human being, where we tend to exaggerate every little issue. right now, i hope everyone's doing their best, cause ever single effort they make; even without them realizing, it makes a differences to others..
i want to be happy. i want people around me to be happy too. why is it so difficult?

have you ever wonder how ways of eating orange's created?? wonder who started creating the "right" way of eating bla bla bla. have you wonder why some people's fart smell so badly while others doesn't?? i don't ask for perfection but i want quality. i don't need the best but i want something good.. that's life, people's greedy. reckon i am too. i want good phone, laptop what.. hmm camera (yea got it), traveling even though haven got the ability to. brain telling myself to go toilet as holding bladder's bad but heart's telling michelle you're too lazy and cbb.. later..
mind's telling michelle you've got english paper tomorrow and math the day after should start revising now but heart's telling, hmm maybe you can take a little short rest (though i've been slacking for the past almost 5hs maybe) and start doing your revision later.. hoho the beauty creation of human is that almost 95% of the time we, human are unpredictable.. (that's my own calculation..) and like this, we like talking to ourself.. (although some might not realize it).

have you wonder how much energy are being used during exam times?? like this morning, had a pretty full breakfast. was complaining on the way to school how full i am and during examination period, stomach started rumbling. was pretty loud too -.- how embarrassing is that . and wonder how long average people's interest span would last.. i know mine doesn't last long.. nothing keeps me interested for very long.. wonder am i normal or i'm just, i dunno, fickle minded? 三分钟！！ woo seems pretty interested in chinese lately.. it's cool.. love those strokes and those meaning each words creates.. very meaningful i rekcon.. ^^ 船到桥头自然之 well not sure if it's right but i like that quote.. ^^

2 more days michelle!! 2 more!! are you excited?? "yes i am. can't wait till it's over!!" are you nervous!?! "yes i am!!" are you ready?!! " NO I'M NOT!!!" arghghhh!! studying yea a little. slacking yea a little too.. bahh bahhh!! @.@ do not let history repeat again, gotta concentrate on your exam.. *i wish i could* ahhhH!! 2 more weeks and it's over!! 12 more days and you're back to sg!! bah bah black sleeepppp behhhhh... @.@

everyone's studying.. what am i doing? bestow me the strength and power of determination and concentration pls.. and away from the dark evil distraction..

if even permanent marker doesn't stay permanent, what does?
sometimes i wonder, maybe we're made of sand.
though sometimes others leave footprints in it, after a high tight
footprint disappears..